{"messages":[{"id":811,"first_name":"c","last_name_initial":null,"their_first_name":"ash","their_last_initial":"B","recipient_type":"Ex","location":"indiana","date_sent":"2025","background_color":"#ccdef0","hearts":0,"word_count":58,"created_at":"2026-05-30T23:35:17.599395+00:00","message_body":"you really liked the backrooms and slate blue. i tried making the colour as similar as possible :( i still miss you anytime i hear french, or think about the sun or flowers or alnst. youll never see this, but im sorry for how things ended, and my dms r open, even tho you dont like me anymore","emotions":[{"color":"#ffc107","score":10,"emotion":"Guilt","category":"complex","metadata":{"matches":2,"rawScore":6.001637002091894,"analysisDepth":"surface"},"intensity":0.78,"confidence":0.92,"matchedKeywords":["sorry"]},{"color":"#ffeb3b","score":0.67,"emotion":"Confusion","category":"contextual","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":1.7999999999999998,"analysisDepth":"advanced"},"intensity":0.75,"confidence":0.95,"matchedKeywords":["contextual_pattern"]},{"color":"#e1bee7","score":1.11,"emotion":"Longing","category":"desire","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":1.9976649250079017,"analysisDepth":"surface"},"intensity":0.32,"confidence":0.51,"matchedKeywords":["miss"]},{"color":"#424242","score":0.1,"emotion":"Despair","category":"contextual","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":1.5,"analysisDepth":"advanced"},"intensity":0.75,"confidence":0.95,"matchedKeywords":["contextual_pattern"]}],"timeAgo":"1h","previewMessage":"you really liked the backrooms and slate blue. i tried making the colour as similar as possible :( i still miss you anytime i hear french, or think about the sun or flowers or alnst. youll never see this, but im sorry for how things ended, and my dms r open, even tho you dont like me anymore"},{"id":810,"first_name":null,"last_name_initial":null,"their_first_name":"Daner","their_last_initial":null,"recipient_type":null,"location":null,"date_sent":null,"background_color":"#b18cfe","hearts":0,"word_count":21,"created_at":"2026-05-30T21:10:08.592544+00:00","message_body":"So for now we will text about cats, and the world, and I guess I will see you in the apocalypse","emotions":[],"timeAgo":"4h","previewMessage":"So for now we will text about cats, and the world, and I guess I will see you in the apocalypse"},{"id":809,"first_name":null,"last_name_initial":null,"their_first_name":"Daner","their_last_initial":null,"recipient_type":null,"location":null,"date_sent":null,"background_color":"#b18cfe","hearts":0,"word_count":100,"created_at":"2026-05-30T21:09:11.670607+00:00","message_body":"I miss you. I don’t think I will ever be over you. Your ghost follows me around every day and however illogical and impossible I can’t stop the wishing I could just kiss you again, just lay in your arms again. I have dreams about it too, and they crush me. I want to see you, but I still love you and I don’t know if it’s a good idea because I think you have moved on. Which destroys me. I still feel that connection to you like i never have. 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I don’t think I will ever be over you. Your ghost follows me around every day and however illogical and impossible I can’t stop the wishing I could just kiss you again, just lay in your arms again. I have dreams about it too, and they crush me. I want to see you, but I still love you and I don’t know if it’s a good idea because I think you have moved on. Which destroys me. I still feel that connection to you like i never have. I wish i didn’t still think you’re my soulmate"},{"id":808,"first_name":null,"last_name_initial":null,"their_first_name":"Taiba","their_last_initial":"C","recipient_type":"Friend","location":null,"date_sent":null,"background_color":"#ff0000","hearts":0,"word_count":46,"created_at":"2026-05-30T11:52:25.610709+00:00","message_body":"Sorry if my words or my actions ever hurted you. I really liked you.. as a person as a human being.. u are such a beautiful soul. I'm sorry but I can't afford the distance we have rn. I hope we stay together like we were.","emotions":[{"color":"#ffc107","score":10,"emotion":"Guilt","category":"complex","metadata":{"matches":2,"rawScore":9.684587925805628,"analysisDepth":"surface"},"intensity":1,"confidence":1,"matchedKeywords":["sorry"]},{"color":"#4caf50","score":2.61,"emotion":"Hope","category":"future","metadata":{"matches":2,"rawScore":3.635748693755926,"analysisDepth":"surface"},"intensity":0.62,"confidence":0.81,"matchedKeywords":["hope"]},{"color":"#ffeb3b","score":0.37,"emotion":"Confusion","category":"contextual","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":1.7999999999999998,"analysisDepth":"advanced"},"intensity":0.75,"confidence":0.95,"matchedKeywords":["contextual_pattern"]},{"color":"#424242","score":0.1,"emotion":"Despair","category":"contextual","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":1.5,"analysisDepth":"advanced"},"intensity":0.75,"confidence":0.95,"matchedKeywords":["contextual_pattern"]}],"timeAgo":"13h","previewMessage":"Sorry if my words or my actions ever hurted you. I really liked you.. as a person as a human being.. u are such a beautiful soul. I'm sorry but I can't afford the distance we have rn. I hope we stay together like we were."},{"id":807,"first_name":null,"last_name_initial":null,"their_first_name":"Faiz","their_last_initial":null,"recipient_type":"Friend","location":null,"date_sent":null,"background_color":"#87ceeb","hearts":1,"word_count":106,"created_at":"2026-05-30T11:49:55.729926+00:00","message_body":"The bond I have with you cannot be compared with anyone, i don't have a message i never sent you, but I have a lot of thoughts i couldn't say to you. Just like, how much lucky I am to have you and how precious this friendship is for me. You did things i never knew someone could do for me. I mean I'm not good at explaining but u are the calm in the choas. And u are the choas in my boredom. You are someone I really really feel connected to. You are my only friend i wish to talk every day every hr.","emotions":[{"color":"#ffeb3b","score":10,"emotion":"Confusion","category":"contextual","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":9.6,"analysisDepth":"advanced"},"intensity":1,"confidence":0.95,"matchedKeywords":["contextual_pattern"]},{"color":"#424242","score":0.1,"emotion":"Despair","category":"contextual","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":8,"analysisDepth":"advanced"},"intensity":1,"confidence":0.95,"matchedKeywords":["contextual_pattern"]}],"timeAgo":"13h","previewMessage":"The bond I have with you cannot be compared with anyone, i don't have a message i never sent you, but I have a lot of thoughts i couldn't say to you. Just like, how much lucky I am to have you and how precious this friendship is for me. You did things i never knew someone could do for me. I mean I'm not good at explaining but u are the calm in the choas. And u are the choas in my boredom. You are someone I really really feel connected to. 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You are the person I love to be with. You are someone I'm glad to have.. you are a lot to me. I hope we stay together i just wish.. we form something unbreakable I want you by my side always and I hope u feel the same. You are the flower I talk about you are hidden in the things I look and admire. I can't help but be confused about the thing I have with you.. a little crush? Or something more."},{"id":803,"first_name":null,"last_name_initial":null,"their_first_name":"Adam","their_last_initial":null,"recipient_type":null,"location":null,"date_sent":null,"background_color":"#87ceeb","hearts":0,"word_count":97,"created_at":"2026-05-30T08:37:32.954359+00:00","message_body":"Do you like me? Do you think of me as I often as I think of you? At the cinema, I couldn't quite focus completely on the film. I had your name on this loop in my head.\n\nHow should I approach my feelings? I want to hold your hand and kiss you and be able to tell others that you're mine. 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Do you think of me as I often as I think of you? At the cinema, I couldn't quite focus completely on the film. I had your name on this loop in my head.\n\nHow should I approach my feelings? I want to hold your hand and kiss you and be able to tell others that you're mine. Maybe writing this is weird, but I need to get my thoughts out.\n\n I'm sorry for not responding to your texts, I'm scared my friends are right and I'm too obvious in how I feel."},{"id":802,"first_name":"Char","last_name_initial":null,"their_first_name":"Vega","their_last_initial":"L","recipient_type":"Ex","location":null,"date_sent":null,"background_color":"#b30000","hearts":0,"word_count":103,"created_at":"2026-05-30T06:26:49.793964+00:00","message_body":"I'm sorry for ruining things. I carry so much guilt. I wish so badly that we could go back to the way things used to be. I may not be the person you'd want anymore but to me it's always going to be you. If I were to be with someone else I'd only end up looking for you through them. I'm not your first and I might be person you might never want to go back to. I've been trying to accept that. It's so hard. I miss YOU. So much. 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I carry so much guilt. I wish so badly that we could go back to the way things used to be. I may not be the person you'd want anymore but to me it's always going to be you. If I were to be with someone else I'd only end up looking for you through them. I'm not your first and I might be person you might never want to go back to. I've been trying to accept that. It's so hard. I miss YOU. So much. I'd change everything about myself and I'd still continue to wait."},{"id":801,"first_name":null,"last_name_initial":null,"their_first_name":"Celeste","their_last_initial":null,"recipient_type":"Ex","location":null,"date_sent":"May 2026","background_color":"#87ceeb","hearts":0,"word_count":94,"created_at":"2026-05-30T05:03:21.69247+00:00","message_body":"My little sunflower. It’s been almost 5 years. I hope you’re doing okay. I hope you’re happy. \n\nI long and yearn for you still, growing more and more hopeless that we might never cross paths again. I still talk to you nightly, sending my endless love for you through the stars, hoping they land on you like a warm, gentle hug or God-wink. \n\nI just wanted to say I love you. Forever and ever. I’m so sorry we ended the way we did. 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It’s been almost 5 years. I hope you’re doing okay. I hope you’re happy. \n\nI long and yearn for you still, growing more and more hopeless that we might never cross paths again. I still talk to you nightly, sending my endless love for you through the stars, hoping they land on you like a warm, gentle hug or God-wink. \n\nI just wanted to say I love you. Forever and ever. I’m so sorry we ended the way we did. I know you’re with someone else now like I am but.."},{"id":800,"first_name":"Bubble","last_name_initial":null,"their_first_name":"Kunsh","their_last_initial":null,"recipient_type":"Other","location":null,"date_sent":"May 2025","background_color":"#85a9ff","hearts":0,"word_count":97,"created_at":"2026-05-30T00:50:37.333566+00:00","message_body":"I wish I could tell you how sorry I am with you believing it. I wish I could've changed faster for you, and I wish we would've never gotten this bad. I know we're supposed to get back together soon, but I can't stop thinking.. am I really good for you? I just want you happy, kun. I've realized I was the problem, almost every time. I miss you being my sweet boy, I miss you before I turned you into this. I miss you in general, kunkun. 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I wish I could've changed faster for you, and I wish we would've never gotten this bad. I know we're supposed to get back together soon, but I can't stop thinking.. am I really good for you? I just want you happy, kun. I've realized I was the problem, almost every time. I miss you being my sweet boy, I miss you before I turned you into this. I miss you in general, kunkun. I hope you see this, I still love you."},{"id":799,"first_name":"RJ","last_name_initial":"R","their_first_name":"CAROLINE","their_last_initial":"D","recipient_type":"Ex","location":null,"date_sent":"SUMMER 2025","background_color":"#ff8000","hearts":0,"word_count":98,"created_at":"2026-05-29T19:51:05.886649+00:00","message_body":"I can't help but remember the raw want to care for you, however you were. The desire for physicality on both sides pushed it under the rug like a side affect instead of the main purpose. It's been a year now and I'm glad we have been separate. Our time away has made me realize what builds a relationship. I know you would never be able to accept it, but if I could go back to when I first met you, I would make my boundaries very clear and build our relationship off of genuine affection. Yours RJ.","emotions":[{"color":"#ffeb3b","score":7.37,"emotion":"Confusion","category":"contextual","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":4.32,"analysisDepth":"advanced"},"intensity":0.9,"confidence":0.95,"matchedKeywords":["contextual_pattern"]},{"color":"#e1bee7","score":10,"emotion":"Longing","category":"desire","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":5.097197910009482,"analysisDepth":"surface"},"intensity":0.56,"confidence":0.61,"matchedKeywords":["desire"]},{"color":"#424242","score":4.92,"emotion":"Despair","category":"contextual","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":3.6,"analysisDepth":"advanced"},"intensity":0.9,"confidence":0.95,"matchedKeywords":["contextual_pattern"]},{"color":"#ff9800","score":0.1,"emotion":"Nostalgia","category":"temporal","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":2.1476649250079016,"analysisDepth":"surface"},"intensity":0.37,"confidence":0.5,"matchedKeywords":["remember"]}],"timeAgo":"1d","previewMessage":"I can't help but remember the raw want to care for you, however you were. The desire for physicality on both sides pushed it under the rug like a side affect instead of the main purpose. It's been a year now and I'm glad we have been separate. Our time away has made me realize what builds a relationship. I know you would never be able to accept it, but if I could go back to when I first met you, I would make my boundaries very clear and build our relationship off of genuine affection. 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sometimes i think i don't fully understand you. did you even care? cause i could've sworn you liked me. at least a little bit goddamnit. sometimes i think you miss me and sometimes i feel like i made it all up. like i imagined the way you looked at me. maybe it wasn't as deep for you as it was for me. maybe you were just casual about it. maybe we really weren't that much alike.","emotions":[{"color":"#ffeb3b","score":9.91,"emotion":"Confusion","category":"contextual","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":10.830000000000002,"analysisDepth":"advanced"},"intensity":0.95,"confidence":0.95,"matchedKeywords":["contextual_pattern"]},{"color":"#4caf50","score":10,"emotion":"Hope","category":"future","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":10.91169007254504,"analysisDepth":"surface"},"intensity":0.96,"confidence":0.81,"matchedKeywords":["maybe"]},{"color":"#00bcd4","score":6.25,"emotion":"Anxiety","category":"contextual","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":7.410000000000001,"analysisDepth":"advanced"},"intensity":0.95,"confidence":0.95,"matchedKeywords":["contextual_pattern"]},{"color":"#e1bee7","score":0.1,"emotion":"Longing","category":"desire","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":1.5803755716766754,"analysisDepth":"surface"},"intensity":0.34,"confidence":0.48,"matchedKeywords":["miss"]}],"timeAgo":"1d","previewMessage":"did anything really matter to you? sometimes i think i don't fully understand you. did you even care? cause i could've sworn you liked me. at least a little bit goddamnit. sometimes i think you miss me and sometimes i feel like i made it all up. like i imagined the way you looked at me. maybe it wasn't as deep for you as it was for me. maybe you were just casual about it. maybe we really weren't that much alike."},{"id":796,"first_name":null,"last_name_initial":"G","their_first_name":"A","their_last_initial":"M","recipient_type":"Other","location":"spain","date_sent":null,"background_color":"#a554e8","hearts":3,"word_count":39,"created_at":"2026-05-29T13:09:09.858663+00:00","message_body":"i really never quite understood you. i really thought you liked me. i could've sworn you liked me. at least you acted like you did. but then you got a gf? like out of nowhere? what happened to us?","emotions":[{"color":"#ffeb3b","score":10,"emotion":"Confusion","category":"syntactic","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":7.965000000000001,"analysisDepth":"advanced"},"intensity":1,"confidence":1,"matchedKeywords":["syntactic_pattern"]},{"color":"#424242","score":0.1,"emotion":"Despair","category":"syntactic","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":6.490000000000001,"analysisDepth":"advanced"},"intensity":1,"confidence":1,"matchedKeywords":["syntactic_pattern"]}],"timeAgo":"1d","previewMessage":"i really never quite understood you. i really thought you liked me. i could've sworn you liked me. at least you acted like you did. but then you got a gf? like out of nowhere? what happened to us?"},{"id":795,"first_name":null,"last_name_initial":null,"their_first_name":"Trinity","their_last_initial":null,"recipient_type":"Friend","location":null,"date_sent":"This week","background_color":"#efcaff","hearts":0,"word_count":92,"created_at":"2026-05-29T04:13:17.0025+00:00","message_body":"You always hurt me. I am in the wrong. But please don’t call me “f—ing stupid” or say that my problems are less than yours. It hurts so so bad. You have always a right to be upset at me if I do anything wrong. But sometimes I wonder if when your upset your just saying things you’ve always felt and using that as an excuse to say it. You’re my best friend though. And I know I’m the only one you have left. So I’ll stay here in limbo for you.","emotions":[{"color":"#ffc107","score":10,"emotion":"Guilt","category":"complex","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":9.640979876342712,"analysisDepth":"surface"},"intensity":0.96,"confidence":0.68,"matchedKeywords":["wrong"]},{"color":"#9e9e9e","score":0.1,"emotion":"Regret","category":"temporal","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":3.329441541679836,"analysisDepth":"surface"},"intensity":0.53,"confidence":0.51,"matchedKeywords":["stupid"]}],"timeAgo":"1d","previewMessage":"You always hurt me. I am in the wrong. But please don’t call me “f—ing stupid” or say that my problems are less than yours. It hurts so so bad. You have always a right to be upset at me if I do anything wrong. But sometimes I wonder if when your upset your just saying things you’ve always felt and using that as an excuse to say it. You’re my best friend though. And I know I’m the only one you have left. So I’ll stay here in limbo for you."},{"id":794,"first_name":"Andrea","last_name_initial":"L","their_first_name":"Cedrick","their_last_initial":"H","recipient_type":"Other","location":"Philippines","date_sent":"This week","background_color":"#0000ff","hearts":0,"word_count":71,"created_at":"2026-05-29T03:13:42.090706+00:00","message_body":"Kung makita mo man 'to.. I wanna let you know na I'm struggling emotionally.. I can't give you the stability that you want.. There will be a lot of days kung saan maooverwhelm ka. Sana alam mo na hindi ko gusto iparamdam sa'yo yon.. Matagal na rin akong nagkikimkim ng saloobin ko hanggang sa napagod na lang ako.. I feel bad that you have to see it and deal with it.","emotions":[{"color":"#4caf50","score":10,"emotion":"Hope","category":"temporal","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":1.4,"analysisDepth":"advanced"},"intensity":0.5,"confidence":0.95,"matchedKeywords":["temporal_pattern"]},{"color":"#ff6f00","score":7.5,"emotion":"Anticipation","category":"temporal","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":1.3,"analysisDepth":"advanced"},"intensity":0.5,"confidence":0.95,"matchedKeywords":["temporal_pattern"]},{"color":"#ffeb3b","score":5,"emotion":"Confusion","category":"contextual","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":1.2,"analysisDepth":"advanced"},"intensity":0.5,"confidence":0.95,"matchedKeywords":["contextual_pattern"]},{"color":"#424242","score":0.1,"emotion":"Despair","category":"contextual","metadata":{"matches":1,"rawScore":1,"analysisDepth":"advanced"},"intensity":0.5,"confidence":0.95,"matchedKeywords":["contextual_pattern"]}],"timeAgo":"1d","previewMessage":"Kung makita mo man 'to.. I wanna let you know na I'm struggling emotionally.. I can't give you the stability that you want.. There will be a lot of days kung saan maooverwhelm ka. Sana alam mo na hindi ko gusto iparamdam sa'yo yon.. Matagal na rin akong nagkikimkim ng saloobin ko hanggang sa napagod na lang ako.. 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I miss not feeling alone for the first time on my life. 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